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orientation is over. yea over. just like tt. this is a depressing entry. stay away if you are all happy over o1, kkae? i din wanna spoil your happiness(: swept over on a wave on emotions. sad cos it ended too soon. regretful cos i din get to spend time with my OG4 because i need to attend to family. lousy as a OGL and asst fam head.. i din go for jjnight. yea, i din. me and jishen sat in the canteen, feeling anything but the mood for jjnight. then marcus came along and cheered us up;D our performance was screwed up. by no fault of the councillors, i truly believe. at first i though it was their fault. after tt, come to think about it, it is not their fault. communication breakdown. the heart shape 'US TO YOU' tt me, jishen, soonkheng, twin, clarinda, roui, wailp stayed up to do till four am on the first night. the words 'US TO YOU' tt me and js went to put just before the performance (as it was lightsticks and we din want to break the light sticks too early). we din get to use it. at tt point, i truly felt so lousy, so angry and so disappointed. i kept asking myself why. why. why. i neglected my OG due to family. hoe was the SCDC attach thus, family stuff are left to me. i din go a good job as astfam head too. there's so much I can do but i din. but thank god. me and js came up with sth. we brought them to the grandstand and we off the lights and showed them the heart and we sang unbreakable. the campers cried, the ogls cried. camp day one. i cheered until i felt so dizzy and i nearly had a blackout. medicine at the hospital i guess. so i tried my best to cheer and scream and make noise and support whoever is in front leading the cheers. songsinging on the last day. i cried and cried. mr liow was talking about how the councillors put in the effort and at the end of the day, they have no OG to themselves, unlike OGL. and he said so many other stuff tt i can relate too and i just can't stop crying. crying crying. thankyou yanchang for tt arm tt put across me when i can't stop crying. you`re great. i felt lousy lousy. i din really enjoy the camp. but i am sure the campers did, which i am so glad for it. put the smile on for the campers(: but i wun forget certain times tt i had with my family and my OG(: and i wun forget how park, a camper, insisted and passing me the contact lens solution cos he knows tt i din have it. i felt so so so touched. and how one extremely off camper in my OG actually came up to me and helped me carry the rubbish bag down. this orientation came to the end alreadi. it was not wat i expected it to be. there are alot of reasons why. tommy, thanks for those small talks we had. talking about our family. talking about how to make them high. and sharing our emotions. thankyou so much tommy. you are really great. how i wish u were in my family and we can all go crazy together. you have no idea how much u impacted me. thankyou my dear friend(: jishen, i can't thank you enough. really. for all the support u showed me. and for hoehan. though we din get to enjoy jjnight, i hope u still did enjoy the whole camp. we shared the same feelings on alot of stuff. there are so many 'if-only' tt we talked about. everything i looked at you, it reminded me tt are still pple supporting me. thankyou so so so much. hoehan, we may not be the best family heads, but i am sure the campers can see the effort u put in. seeing you cry, made me cried harder. thankyou for everything, hoehoehoe. and sorry hoe. i ain't a good asstfam head. freddy, thankyou so much for supporting hoe and me during cheers and always helping us to delay time with all those lame games and cheers. you are great. roui, kianwee, rohanna, sorry. i ain't a good ogl. and rest of the family one OGLs, thankyou. to campers, i hope u guys enjoyed this camp and thank your OGL for it(: |