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so we are at the crossroads
But I can feel my heart open againIt's opening for you Just come in, and love me back That's all you have to do I must ask you one small thing Before we kiss and part Please be nice and kind to me I'm tired of broken hearts |
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shuling liyi w4tchou7 biwei richard weiling minyu roseline weihong foursevener SJAB fel huihui jjcians lixin jane tommy esther jasmine tzeling qingling roui mayching 06A02 06A02 isabelle germaine yvette jishen 06A03 eunice vithiya archives
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i think i need to clarify this! I AINT ANGRY OR DISAPPOINT WITH MY OG FOR NOT ATTENDING THE TWO EVENTS! it was swept away on a wave of emotions when i saw how the ogs are playing happily with their ogls. of cos i understand that my og&ogls can't turn up becos of their own other committments and i DUN BLAME THEM! haha but of cos, i felt lonely with them;( cheers man. og4 will still be og, even if they dun turn up for any famone stuff(: thanks freddy. touched me with ur entry too! will try to post it here when i`m free. or guys, just go to his blog. and thanks wuhan too. touched(: right, back to mkt failure and twisting balloons for love feista(: time to start afresh. my facade is breaking down. push me a lil further, i may not be able to handle. 'it is about us, pushing ourselves to the limits,' says jishen. how very true. break away? give me a lil more time, my frens. i came this far, and even if my facade breaks, i will still hang till the very end, for i know there are still pple supporting me. It is slightly more than a year since i met her. Once a classmate of mine in the best ever first 3 month class any batch in JJC had ever seen. The class is none other than the Badminton gang of 06A02. She is one of the first few girls whom i knew then and was really fun knowing her. She joined the Shadows and did a great job for orientation 2 in 2006. I am sure she went through lots of hard times and had to over come hurdles none could ever imagaine as a leader in school but she did it nonetheless. Then came 2007 orientation Family 1 voted as the Asst. Family Head. Really glad that she is again given this opportunity as i know she would be able to do it well. However what puzzles me now is why didn't she become the family head. The reason is very simple. She has done or is doing ( still ) hell lots of things for family one since the very very very start of the whole orientation and before that during the preparation stage. She got the Ogls thier shoe laces, the pouch, the nice names we have inside. The first family dinner after orientation in 2007 was her idea and she spend hell lots of time planning and organising it. The family dinner did turn out to be a succuess with campers saying that it was fun and nice but what is still a big question mark is the BBQ 2morrow. As much as what she can do or plan, she needs support. In trying to gather support from follow Ogls, i help her thank those who came forward and gave all they had in making all these events possible by planning with her supporting her and running the events with her. These OGLs deserves to be credited for all they had done but i feel that in Family One, there is this one person who i have been writing about above deserves the outmost credits and respect that nobody in the Family including the Family Head can refute. She is none other then Xinyi. For the pass weeks, she has been busy and not concentrating in class because of all the activities she is planning for the campers. Her alone is doing most of the work as somebody who was voted to do these things is totally oblivious of what is going on and cannot even be bother to care. I shall not touch on that too much as i shall give him the benefit of the doubt in whatever reasons he has for not carrying out his responsibilities. Hahaaa after writing soo soo much wads my point u may ask. Well what i am trying to get across is that i hope the next time u guys ( campers ) sees Xinyi go up to her with this big big smile and say "Thank You". Also another purpose of this post is to let u ppl know that sometimes, not the person holding the biggest reponsibility should be credited for any succuess of an event. gosh, this guy can't write in paragraphs and i`m having headache reading the post (but i can't stop reading it). but i love him so much for this uber-super-ultra-plus ultra-touching post. it made me cried;( you did your part to help in every lil way you could. thankyou, foojishen. and i must thank angjunting from family four. he sponsered us food and money cos famone is short of money for bbq later. and he also generously lend us his ipod and speaker for our famdinner ytd. he is not even from family one but yet, the lil actions he made is great beyond words. i am so touched, angjunting(: and i must thank the following pple: EUNICE ANG PINGXIONG. thanks for everything. like going to buy stuff, helping me to think of ideas and more. you`re of a biggggg help! just stop stoning(: YANCHANG: thanks for helping to think of the three posters idea for family dinner and ur quick wits to light up the stairs with lightsticks when it rained. it was great(: YVEE AND DEV: fori know now i aint great company these few weeks cos i am always preoccupied with famone stuff. i`m moody and wat-not. thanks for always trying to make me smile(: you two are greaaaaaaat(: macbrekkie! GERM: thanks for always helping to think of ideas and helping to deco the grandstand for famdinner. and yes, the class. we still have yet to buy the balloons. we will pull thru this hectic period. i felt so loved ytd morning, on the way to sch. i met xiuling and lixin at the bus stop. lixin gave a me very sweet choc and xiuling gave me lolli! i felt so loooved(: it was out of no reason and they gave me sweets! thankyou, ladies! famdinner at grandstand. went there with germ right after sch dismiss to do up the grandstand with crepe paper. some cocked up with the paper cos they kept moving. but the effect was nice afterall(: at first, it was a lil dissappointing cos of the attendance. but clara was there to cheer me up. thanks clara. so we mingle ardd and well, things get better. we had some stupid games and freddy was entertaining them madly while we are lighting up the heart with F1 in the centre with the wind and rain. so up goes the three posters. 'hi family one!' 'i bet you guys are enjoying ur chicken rice!' 'you guys want to know a secret? really really? freddy's a gay and xinyi boobs are fake!' pls look down to catch them in act!' and they went down the stairs to the corridor (since it was raining and we can't do it at the original plan of doing it at the flagpole area). and then, they saw the heart-with-f1-in-the-centre, all glowing and nice(: thanks to clara and two f4 campers who helped us light up the heart. i think we are the first family to have family dinner in sch. and this dinner is different from the rest. cos it is a special dinner that the campers will not forget. which family does family dinner in sch, at the family spot? which family comes up with touching ideas to surprise the campers? and which family have chicken rice for family dinner?! HAHA ONLY FAMILY ONE 2007. i am glad tt everything went well. no, make it GREAT. thanks everyone, for helping in one way or the other(: edited: just came back from famone to six bbq. happy, laughing, crazy, lame-ing, on top of feeling rotten, leftout and unbonded. reached at four plus with clara to wait for the food. then started cooking when the fire is done. and i nv left the pit the moment i stepped in. og1 prepared sth for their ogls. so sweet(: after a while, almost everyone left the pit, to play with their og. the campers were having so much fun(: cleared the area abit and i left with junting at 10 while the rest are stil havoc-ing at westcaost.    og4 outing ytd. we headed to JEC and had pizza hut! then we headed to take neos! guess wat? the machine broke down twice in a row! then finally for a third time, it worked and THE MACHINE CAN TAKE ALL 16 OF US! actually it can take 17 of us but sacha has to go before the third attempt. I LOOOVE THAT MACHINE THOUGH IT BROKE DOWN 2 TIMES. then we played some arcade and pool-ed. something is very different and special about this og4 outing. normally, in other ogs, when they have this kind of outing, they will talked about A liking B but B liking C. or, bitch or gossip. but my og, i am so proud to say, WE DIN TALK BOUT ALL THESE! they were all not from s'pore and they either have to stay alone, or with room mates. or, if they are lucky enuff, they get to stay with parents/guardians. so they were talking about sharing an apartment with their og mates, talking about where did they come from. i must say, it is really a very different outing i had. and i learned alot of stuff through this wonderful og of mine(: eveline, sacha, xuexuan, dandan, fangming, yurica, linling, yuning, mayching, weeleong, park, yongtao, chenchen, duc, fendy, kokmun and me! 17 of us. i think that's really a good turnout! but once again, og4 is always left with one ogl and tt always-there-facilitator-lee-kok-mun. HAHA and i have to leave early for my family stuff (real family, not famone, kokmun!) i thinkwe are the onli og tt took a neoprint during outing. we should have more outings(: huijun, u made me laugh my ass off with that tag of yours HAHA it is going to rain and i can't go get my haircut;(  sorry yvee girl. we celebrated ur bade, onli 12 days later! so sorry, but it is the thoughts tt count! i hope u did enjoy it and had a pleasant surprise!  random yet again- there are 300 plus J1 leaders! and 100 planning comm. WHAO and they got to choose whether they wanna be in planning comm or not! AND WE ARE THE LAST BATCH OF SHADOWS! COOOOOOL(: i did pc EVERYSINGLETIME this year. HAHA and lunched with dev and yvee! cut this short, i had a really ups-and-downs-alot-of-times week. byebye- love is like a shadow. random photos that bring back tons of memories-  this is always the first photo to be posted(:  indeed, the lovely pple of my first three mths class, a02.  cafe days  i still love the game.  sjab-ing days  my orientation-myog3-my wonderful OGls.  jj010-a tough start, a happy ending.  us-ao2.  shadows:)  our shadows' laces  those were the days in sec2.  oh yes. we do look alike from the back..  SUHUIJUN(: i still love this ugly photo best.  ao3 girls one year ago-  greasyus-greasya03. oh grease. i wun ever forget this(: and wait till i get orientation pics(: from wesley-one of the most enthu camper in FAMone. after that they gave us family time for an hour...we went to the grandstand, our family spot and the OGLs had a massive surprise for us =). they had made a heartshaped cardboard with a message on it, and when we saw it we were just overwhelmed with emotion at what the OGLs did for us throughout the whole camp =). then we all sang and cried together. i didnt cry at all though haha. ><. the only time i almost cried was like, when we were singing on the last day. just watery eyes only. anyway, like lawrence, our senior said, this kind of thing, no need cry one lah. and i think, on that grandstand that night, we felt like the best family of people in JJ, in JJ history. gosh-so sweet for tt last sentence! our effort were paid off(: everyone seems to be posting UNBREAKABLE in their blog. so here goes! cos i really feel tt this song is so damn meaingful(: either with my OG4, or with FAMone. took my hand, touch my heart, held me close, you were always there ,by my side, night and day, through it all, baby come what may, swept away on a wave of emotion, oh were caught in the eye of a storm, and whenever you smile, i can hardly believe that your mine, believe that your mine. this love is unbreakable, its unmistakable, and each time i look in your eyes, i know why, this love is untouchable, i feel in my heart just cant deny, each time i look in your eyes ohh baby, i know why, this love is unbreakable. share the laughter, share the tears, we both know, we`ll grow old from here, cause together,we are strong, in my arms,thats where you belong, i`ve been touched by the hands of an angel, i`ve been blessed by the power of love, and whenever you smile, i can hardly believe that your mine. this love is unbreakable, its unmistakable, each time i look in your eyes, i know why, this love is untouchable, i feel in my heart just cant deny, each time you whisper my name ohh baby i know why. this love is unbreakable, through fire and flames, when all this is over, our love still remains. this love is unbrekable, its unmistakable, each time i look in your eyes, i know why, this love is untouchable, i feel in my heart just cant deny, each time you whisper my name ohh baby, i know why. cause each time i look in your eyes ohh baby, i know why, this love is unbreakable. indeed, i still haven get over orientation. just had my first lit test on thursday i think. great. i nearly handed up a blank paper when my ans is suppose to be ardd 4 pages for 2 essay qns. thanks germ for tt nudge and telling me where to find ans. and i can't seem to concentrate in class! i seem to NOT understand everything la. i turned over to twin during econ lect and asked her 'you understand?' cos she looked like she really understand. but she said NO. haha in her stoning manner, as usual. yes lovely, JJ010. we need to get our asses down for PROJECT WORK YET AGAIN. good thing we get 10dollars cafe voc HAHA and if we make our booth nice enuff, WE MIGHT GET 30DOLLARS KBOX VOC! amazing??? NO. NOT REALLY. i tot pw was over when i handed in my I&R. for my LOVE for JJ010, I WILL HANG ON FOR THREE MTHS MORE. hohoho. went to eat with our class girls at jp today. sorry to germ and twin. i guess i was moody and all. but it's me la. i worry about alot of stuff and i cant stop worrying about *. it gets in my nerves tt i know about it but i cant do anything about it. let's just await monday. and there's hole in my shoe. time to get new ones. og outing nx sat(: FAMone to six outing, 27/1/07. pls spread ardd. time and place not settled yet. famheads are still discussing(: hello! just been to eveline's and yurica's blog. took sth from yurica's blog. THANK YOU GUYS. who? COUNCILORS! i think that rockstar-like teacher, you know who, should be demanding and he must have given the councilors a hard time throughout the whole preparation of Orientation and during the event itself (of course, reason being he wanted to give us the best). without the councilors, camp wouldn't have been a blast. i think they (1) killed so much of their brain cells planning for this event, (2) suffered from sun burnt for being in the afternoon sun (3) caught flu for being in the rain (4) starved (maybe) just like our OGLs (5) and the list goes on ... for these that they've done, i'd like to tell them thank you but i didn't have the chance cus i don't know any of them nor know what to say if i decided to tell them anything in their face. it's very true of what the rockstar-like teachers mentioned, even after the camp ended, OGLs still have what they can call their very own OGs. On the contrary, councilors had none of what they can call their own. Sacrificed their time and energy and everything they've got to offer for this camp. but some of us, like me, are being very unfair to them for only showing our gratitude towards OGLs but not councilors. so by any (slim) chance that any councilors come across this entry, i'd like to say a big big THANK YOU! so true about what she said about the councillors. it reminds me of shadows period(read march12's entry). the fun times and wat not. those were the days. i kinda of miss them. i hope the councillors will get to read the para she wrote. dev asked me sth when we were lunching ytd. shadows or ogl better? i have to say both jobs are really different. shadows do the behind-the-scences stuff, while ogl, u take the front line. now tt i`ve done both, i feel really great cos i know wat it is like to be in front and at the back. sch is alright. can't really concentrate in classes and lectures. and i know tt is bad. everyone in my class is MUGGING. yes, mugging. and it is high time i start too. and my motivation to go to sch now is to see my og mates(: now i finally understand how good it feels to have a og to urself. and in sch today, we had song dedication! og4 pple dedicated a song to the ogls! touched! haha thankyou so much og4(: and thanks roui, for tt dedication for og4(: cca open hse. nth much. JOIN TOUCHRUGBY! and tt's all i did. and my hand. damn, the doc have no idea wat it is. even after x-ray. so yea, off to a ultrasound scan on 31st. and it costs 100bucks;( and my voice is STILL HUSKY AND MANLY. will upload photos once i received it. hi there. to twins: hi there. really terribly sorry. i cast a baised view of you guys and i noe it is super unfair. ultra sorry. cheered up after reading the taggs(: thankyou(: then came to realise sth that happened to two ogls. that made me realised i failed even further as a asst fam head cos i din even realised it. on a happier note, there are campers tt think tt me and twin actually looked alike and they duno who is who even up till the last day of camp! reporting to sch tml at 650am. yawns! thanks og4. you guys are a bunch of enthu and fun-loving pple. even other ogls comment tt our og is the most enthu! though most of time i aint with you guys and tt the other ogls also cant due to their duties, i am glad most of you still enjoyed the camp(: was so touched when linling brought a heart and gave it to me and told me; " our love for you cannot be written out" in chinese. sth like that. and how the guys actually said they enjoyed the camp(: and how the girls cheered and cheered like mad! thankyou everyone(: sigh. orientation ended too fast. orientation is over. yea over. just like tt. this is a depressing entry. stay away if you are all happy over o1, kkae? i din wanna spoil your happiness(: swept over on a wave on emotions. sad cos it ended too soon. regretful cos i din get to spend time with my OG4 because i need to attend to family. lousy as a OGL and asst fam head.. i din go for jjnight. yea, i din. me and jishen sat in the canteen, feeling anything but the mood for jjnight. then marcus came along and cheered us up;D our performance was screwed up. by no fault of the councillors, i truly believe. at first i though it was their fault. after tt, come to think about it, it is not their fault. communication breakdown. the heart shape 'US TO YOU' tt me, jishen, soonkheng, twin, clarinda, roui, wailp stayed up to do till four am on the first night. the words 'US TO YOU' tt me and js went to put just before the performance (as it was lightsticks and we din want to break the light sticks too early). we din get to use it. at tt point, i truly felt so lousy, so angry and so disappointed. i kept asking myself why. why. why. i neglected my OG due to family. hoe was the SCDC attach thus, family stuff are left to me. i din go a good job as astfam head too. there's so much I can do but i din. but thank god. me and js came up with sth. we brought them to the grandstand and we off the lights and showed them the heart and we sang unbreakable. the campers cried, the ogls cried. camp day one. i cheered until i felt so dizzy and i nearly had a blackout. medicine at the hospital i guess. so i tried my best to cheer and scream and make noise and support whoever is in front leading the cheers. songsinging on the last day. i cried and cried. mr liow was talking about how the councillors put in the effort and at the end of the day, they have no OG to themselves, unlike OGL. and he said so many other stuff tt i can relate too and i just can't stop crying. crying crying. thankyou yanchang for tt arm tt put across me when i can't stop crying. you`re great. i felt lousy lousy. i din really enjoy the camp. but i am sure the campers did, which i am so glad for it. put the smile on for the campers(: but i wun forget certain times tt i had with my family and my OG(: and i wun forget how park, a camper, insisted and passing me the contact lens solution cos he knows tt i din have it. i felt so so so touched. and how one extremely off camper in my OG actually came up to me and helped me carry the rubbish bag down. this orientation came to the end alreadi. it was not wat i expected it to be. there are alot of reasons why. tommy, thanks for those small talks we had. talking about our family. talking about how to make them high. and sharing our emotions. thankyou so much tommy. you are really great. how i wish u were in my family and we can all go crazy together. you have no idea how much u impacted me. thankyou my dear friend(: jishen, i can't thank you enough. really. for all the support u showed me. and for hoehan. though we din get to enjoy jjnight, i hope u still did enjoy the whole camp. we shared the same feelings on alot of stuff. there are so many 'if-only' tt we talked about. everything i looked at you, it reminded me tt are still pple supporting me. thankyou so so so much. hoehan, we may not be the best family heads, but i am sure the campers can see the effort u put in. seeing you cry, made me cried harder. thankyou for everything, hoehoehoe. and sorry hoe. i ain't a good asstfam head. freddy, thankyou so much for supporting hoe and me during cheers and always helping us to delay time with all those lame games and cheers. you are great. roui, kianwee, rohanna, sorry. i ain't a good ogl. and rest of the family one OGLs, thankyou. to campers, i hope u guys enjoyed this camp and thank your OGL for it(:  wheettts! FAMONE(: this is the paper in our pouch. I WROTE THE NAMES! it's ABIT ugly but the good outliners (twin, ming, sam and rohanna) made the cards look nicer(: reflections on 2006: i think 2006 is the year where i met the most setbacks.
but nevertheless, there are stuff tt made me smile:
tt pretty much sums up my 2006. disappointing yet fruitful year. happy 2007(: |