|
so we are at the crossroads
But I can feel my heart open againIt's opening for you Just come in, and love me back That's all you have to do I must ask you one small thing Before we kiss and part Please be nice and kind to me I'm tired of broken hearts |
|
|
XOXO
X I N Y I 23o689 speak
happyness
2/4
shuling liyi w4tchou7 biwei richard weiling minyu roseline weihong foursevener SJAB fel huihui jjcians lixin jane tommy esther jasmine tzeling qingling roui mayching 06A02 06A02 isabelle germaine yvette jishen 06A03 eunice vithiya archives
credits
Design: doughnutcrazy |
hahaha see! HE LOOKS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD IN JJ UNIFORM! so many pple agree. mathani agrees too! hahahha yea man! good and cute and nice and handsome and sweet and basically all the good words can be used on him. hahahahha kuinoi. u better agree! okie a weird way to start an entry but nevertheless. it`s a fact. a fact is always a fact. had a bet with vicky. bet tt i wun tok until four thirty today. i spoke within half an hour of the bet. asked for another chance. then i spoke 2o mins after the first chance. then asked for second chance. and i spoke within 1o min of the second chance. hahahhahahah so all in all. i lost. owe vicky a five dollar meal=X haha i made a bet with him too. make sure he dun speak any vulgarites. and he din. damn it la. hahaha a great discovery today. watever la. seriously, i can`t be bothered. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee looks good. oh he looks so good. oh he looks so oh he look so oh he looks so gooooooooooooood! so long! i`m back hahaha revelation on tues was horrible. everything seems wrong. the dismissal was crap. revelation to many is when shadows are recognised! but. ya. damn sad la. the word shadow was not even mention at all. during Og time, shadows felt so damn left out cos all the ogls are toking to their og. then the shadows are left all alone. feeling so lost cos we duno wat to do. and someone din wanna give a proper closing la. damn him. felt so pissed with him la. everyone was pissed with him. wth. so the whole revelation me germ and huijun was giving the black faces. wth. wth. wth. at least i enjoyed myself during mass dance. dancing as a trio with nicole and huijun. damn damn funny la! laughed like mad hahaha oh bother. felt so pissed. then told myself to look forward to ao2 class dinner. then even worse. a fight broke out. wth again. damn him. always spoiling things! wth. germ huijun and i cried. let out our anger. our sadness. blarr. let out almost everything. then talked to ao2 pple! haha felt so much happier when i went home though i din went to eat with them but ao2 never failed to cheer me up! yea ao2=) today is a okie day Lol. had civics in the hall. i almost killed germ with my bare hands. ahha germ! nx time think before u speak okie! dun get me into deep shit! hahaha stupid germ la. haha me and germ chose to go for pw lecture instead of the thank-you tea party. then was kinda pissed off cos.. i can`t donate blood!!!! wth! went thru all the check ups and blood test etc. all done le. then waited for one hr plus so i can donate blood. then when i sat on the chair, all ready to have my arms poked with the thick needles, the nurse tell me: ur veins are too thin. sorry. u can`t donate! wth. i was like wat?! been thru everything then all ready to donate then! wth la. damn sad la. i wanted so much to donate la! nvm. i`ll make my veins grow bigger then donate again in july. haha so i was kinda depressed. then went to pw lecture. then the teacher waiting to start but everyone was talking la. so i went shhhhh. then junting looked at me and i gave tt look. sorry junting. haha i was pissed off la. u got to donate blood i din! u got the cute bandage i din! so ya. haha haha a bet is going on between me germ and huijun. not to call anyone xiao anything. like xiaobai xiaoji Lol. damn funny la. had pc today. wet my shorts cos i sat on the wet track. was damn uncomfortable! then during stood up and dry my butt cos got air con, then bowei asked wat i was doing. told him i was airing my butt. he was like wat?! hahahaha council? now we are council elects. alamak. duno to join not. alot of rules! 1. cannot string shirt. 2. shoelaces onli one colour 3. cannot late for sch 4. set role model in class. 5. must tuck in pe tee i broke all the rules alreadi. firstly, i string alllllllllllllllllllllllllll my shirts. failed. secondly, i got green and pink shoelaces. cos it`s the shadow`s shoelaces. blar. failed. thirdly, i was almost late for sch toaay. and ytd. and the day before. failed. fourth. i can`t set role model in class! i tok in class la. failed. lastly, i hate tucking in. and my pe tees are stringed. failed. alamak. huijun confirm quitting le. if germ quitting, i`m off too! hahaha but im still happy today=) oh isabelle! how to express how touched i am? omgg. this part of ur blog entry totally rawk. i love u soooo very much! u made me feel so much much better la! Anyway if you are a 2nd-intaker and you happen to be reading this (though the probability is like 1/1000), I have this to tell you. The people who have worked, sweated, lost sleep, gained eyebags, got scoldings, cried and suffered are the people who aren't your OGLS. BUT THE SHADOWS WHO MADE ORIENTATION 2 SUCCESSFUL FOR ALL OF YOU. They have slogged their guts and brain cells and energy out for this orientation, and I'm saying this so that you at least KNOW that they exist, and that they were the ones who made orientation so special for you other than your OGLs who get all the front attention. They work backstage, and they are the crew who did all your decos, programmed all your games, taught you all your dances. They leave school at almost six to seven most of the time before the week of orientation, they get home at an unearthly hour of nine or ten when we are all snugly tucked into our beds. I think we should give them a salute, or at least, a word of thanks. Germ, Xin Yi & Hui Jun! Don't feel down just because your efforts aren't recognised by and large, cause they are, in me and in us who are behind you all (: awww. isabelle isabelle! I`M SO HAPPY TODAY!! SO SO SO HAPPY. dun ask me why. i duno. hahahahah but i`m happy! yea! went to sch for meeting. reached at one. onli saw huijun and germ sitting in the canteen. and no one else. watever. some are doing the video at the ops rm there. but ops rm is not open. and the key is with hanyang. so slack ardd and feeling pissed. then slack ardd. did sth funny with huijun germ yuzheng leonard tommy. haha damn funny la. but too lazy to type out LOL finally at two someone came to open the ops rm. but still. me and huijun got nth to do. so sian la. went to hall to see if we can be of any help. but no. we can`t help in anything again. felt so useless! then went to ops rm. on the way there saw mr eric goh. man. he rmbb my name? gosh. i can`t pon project work liao. then finally found sth to do behind ops rm. so do do do. left with huijun at three thirty. oh bother. din do much today. feeling super happy=) wheets. i`m finally bloggin after so long. damn sia. my com crashed. everything is gone. g o n e . my photos my songs. arrggh. so sad la. trying to get back most of the photos. thanks isabelle! for the effort u spent in clicking the photos one by one LOL to send me via msn=) THANKS GIRL=) oh well. pple send me photos and songs!!!! need them badly. esp photos. heartbroken sia. all the photos gone. sad la. asshole com! o6ao3. okie class. quite quiet. not use to it lol esp after ao2. how can one get use to quiet class?! valentine is funny la haha laff at the stupidest thing ever. simon too! 'f*** is a universal word. u can have f off, f you etc. isn`t it beautiful?!' oh man. and tt ivan. copy the way xiaoji talks. hah and going ardd bluffing pple with the cockroach! haha i screamed the first time he scared me. then no more! haha brave me! haha thanks to these pple and germ isabelle vicky yvette, i dun find ao3 tt quiet LOL but! ao3 wun ever be like ao2=) germ and her yeehoau. hahahaha. jus wanna laff=) went ardd saying classic jokes LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL vicky almost killed me la. haha do you have a plaster? cos i injured myself when i fell for you=) can u get me sth? GET LOST. this is classic sia. haha can`t stop laffing la. valentine too la lol haha listen to geog lecture! haha not bad hur. took down alot of notes cos i dun have the printed notes. lol then vicky kept asking wat`s there to take down lol taking down is a way to make sure i dun fall alseep LOL germ germ germ huijun huijun huijun council council council! h a h a after reading germ`s entry, i feel like bloggin bout camp AGAIN! hahhaha i agree with germ. when all shadows were on stage during jj night, me huijun germ were not. we were going ardd crying and hugging every ao2 ple we can get hold of. okie. must admit tt ao2 meant more to us. germ felt it too. nth beats the feeling tt ao2 gave the three of us. it might sound really bad towards the shadows but. it`s not tt shadows dun mean anything to us. it does. seriously. but just tt ao2 meant more=) really really really really think tt ao2 is a fantastic class. hope ao3 will be one too! haha yea. campers cried during jj night. kinda cool sia. and because of tt, we got praised! yea! haha being on stage enabled me to see everything. sometimes i felt very helpless up there. the ogls din respond. when asked to go a certain places, some even came up to me, after the instructions was given, to ask where are they suppose to go. okie. so my instructions were not clear? but i repeated my instructions always. asked the shadows if it was true. chengxun gave tt angry face and said: no! IS THEY NV LISTEN. thanks chengxun. when i told family heads to take over for family time, i see OGLS sitting and talking among themselves. wat this hurr. then i assume they din hear again, so i repeated loud and clear. but no one moved. until tommy [shadow] went over and told them. worse thing of all, they were alreadi told about this prob. but still. kinda disappointed with them. sometimes the ogl are good. but sometimes they are not. seeing how they cared for their campers touched me deeply. but. just letting my anger out. cos got teachers said tt the ogl are very co-operative. so kinda dun agree with them at times. but nvm! the camp is over=) one more day! then ic an go out with my dearest liyi=) haha and can u believe? I STARTED STUDYING ALREADI. haha i re-read my econs notes! i`m so proud of myself! hahahaha okie. i`m here to update after tt oh-so-touching entry hahaha broke the news to my mama tt i wanna be a councillor. not so badd. okie. sc here i come! my hand still hurts like mad. but i dun feel like going to the chi doc leh. i went the other time and the pain came back during the camp. then my mum say no pt in going cos it wun recover totally. okie i`m not making sense LOL so got to live with the pain haha liyi`s birthday this coming sat. can`t wait to go out with her! zhen liyi! i can`t wait to go out with you! and i got sth special for you! prepare ur tears for sat! LOVEYA GIRL! got lotsa to update u about! i`m happy today! it`s all over in a blink of the eye! can`t believe it.. kinda sad! i wan o2 to repeat! it all started with me disliking shadows. and i further dislike it when pple in my class start going ' ah u shadow u big la!' haha though they are onli kidding but it does have an effect on me huijun and germ. it does hurts at times. but of cos. being o6ao2 they showered us with lotsa love and care too! haha every other time they`ll ask us to take care and stuff. it all these small little things tt touched the three of us. love o6ao2=) all the planning with shadows. all the so-called-conflicts. all the differences. all put aside to make this orientation a success. all the scoldings and blastings we got frm seniors and teachers. all the dry runs. all the running here and there. all the tears tt shadows shed during meetings and when things got real tough. sometimes things got so hard to handle tt i wanted to quit. esp the period of time when huijun was not considered a shadow cos she put sajc as her first choice. i depended on her! lotsa persure cos games was the main core of the entire camp. supposed to oversee everything and make sure things go on right. all the late nights. looking thru the proposals and understanding them. all the scrubbing after the games. made all of us grow muscles! the packing of log stuff. pestering log com to give us our required log items. i love my woc gang! huijun leonard yuzheng! though we got kinda separated, with huijun goign to actual story, me as com 2nd i/c, i still wished i was part of the wonderful woc lame gang. the joy we had in tt gang. haha the fun. all the lame shit. hahhahahah all the racking of our brains to think of exciting games! i racked so hard till my hair started dropping Lol me huijun and nicole! the ants! hahhahahahaha all the times we had bitching ardd hahaha everything went okie-ly during camp. not much feelings when i first went up on stage to give instructions to 860 pple. okie i did it. yes. i dun have to give tt face anymore. i can be crazy! i can laugh like mad! i can scream! dun have to pretend to be strict and not smiling on stage anymore! haha poor chengxun. he`s the one controlling the mike and music. everytime i will go 'chengxun i wan to tok!' then he have to tone down the music and let me tok. sometimes i forgot to tell him then he will give me tt look tt make me wan to laff but i can`t. haha xunxun! jj night. super cool. met up with o6ao2 pple. LOVE THEM!!! all came in tt lime green class tee. so nice to see them there! danced with vicky! haha super funny la. haha then after everything, all shadows went up onto the stage. haha with all our teary red eyes. saw our class pple sitting behind in the super bright lime green shirt. then saw marcus walked in! super happy to see him la. though he got bball trials he still came though it was quite late alreadi! then me germ huijun went down to hug everyone of o6ao2. the multi racial three. the fivesome. aww. it was hard to say goodbye tt day. super hardd.wanted to linger with the class more but can`t cos we need to gather with the shadows again. kinda sad cos wun be seeing the class anymore! pple like celest marcus matin liying. dun asked me why o6ao2 is so bonded. it just sth in us tt made us so bonded. sth special=) awwww. i miss them so very much=( sth happened tt made me blushed like mad. m a d. all thanks to kuinoi mat germ serena. kill me sia. eweb the next day was horrible! i cried again! cos it was super touching. seeing ms tan cried. then all the girls got triggered off and we all cried together. all the times we had together.. cried and cried and cried. me and huijun cried until we got to shared the same piece of tissue haha updated: AND OH! someone touched me deeply. deeply. one camper came up to me after jj night. just before lights out. he said this to me: i think u did a great job! well done! and he shook my hand. from family 3 og12. haha can`t rmb the name LOL but he touched me so deeply la! i wanna thank him like mad but i dun who he is=X mr handsome ng said tt jj night was a break thru cos it`s the first o2 jj night whereby campers cried. he said we did it. we surpassed the previous batch of shadows. oh yes. finally they said tt we are good. jj night. best night of the entire camp. i love jj night=) me germ and huijun joining Sc. ya. see the three of us rawk sc like mad=) i dun wanna miss a thing. faced a total of bout 900 J1 today. ahh. abit screwed on stage. stammered la. and said one wrong thing=X SCREAMS LA. steady girl. keep it going. u can do it. yes. i can do it. everyone who wants to make announcements come to me. then they come in flocks. TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME. AND I`M EXPECTED TO LISTEN TO ALL OF THEM AT THE SAME TIME. haha i was like. STOPPPPppp. ONE BY ONE. haha screwedd. okie. i`ll do a better job tml. yes i will. i willlllllllllll. haha. o6ao2. the loving class! woke up today feeling lost=X was thinking that tml will be monday so will get to see ao2 tml haha but then suddenly realised that tml is the start of a sch term.so ao2 wun be there anymore :( missed them madly! pple like mat kinah celest kuinoi marcus blahh. friday was the hardest day i think. esp during the class lunch when we ordered pizza. wished that time will stop there and then la. keep thinking photos with practically everyone i can get hold of haha in the end left cos got to go for shadow stuff. so reluctant. two months of memories. nv tot i`ll so attached to this class. which class will skipped all lessons and played badminton the entire day? we played so much badminton until civics tutor banned us frm the hall because we always pon leesons to play haha lovelovelovelovelovelove them so much=)) missmissmissmissmiss them so much alreadi=)) thanks to all who wished me luck and believe that i can do it tml. face a total like more than 500 pple. standing on the damn stage. acting strict. cannot laugh. cannot smile. be firm. i need all the luck i can get=) o2 is starting like tml?! so scared. hope there will be no major cock up. hope everything will be okie. esp my dearest games com. think they`re super stressed up. in a confused state now. somtimes i wish that o2 will come soon. but sometimes i wish o2 will not come. haha cos once it comes..it will end very soon. then all the efforts will come to an end. no more shadows meetings. no more late nights. think i`ll miss it though i always complain about it. feeling tired and stuff. then council. shld i join? some say yes some say no. haha shrugss. see wat my mum say in the end. haha i hope tml when i go on stage i wun tremble. i wun stammer. i wun cock up. i love o6ao2 <33 mat kinah celest kuinoi: gonna miss the times the five of us spent together. kuinoi and kinah, though u all going sci stream, hope we can still meet each other in sch! mat and celest, hope u all will be happy in ur new jcs=)) so going to miss u all la. meet up soon! hugs to all=) marcus: haha teddy! i noe u wun be reading this but u`re so very missed. all ur SIALA. hahaha be happy in pjc taking ur computing=) haha shdows reminds me of ants. haha nicole and huijun will understand wat i mean=) and oh isabelle! i finally get a real photo with him liao. NO NEED TO EDIT IT ANYMORE LA! hahahahahaha wha. super tired. reached home at 1030 today=X been reaching home at 9 plus ten plus these few days la. haha super tired! but one more week. all will be over. ONE MORE WEEK. ENDURE ENDURE! |